I’m sitting here feeling very anxious right now, with all that is going on with covid around the world and all that appears to be coming down the pipe to us in the coming year. It’s horrible feeling to have, and to share. To think that evil is taking over and we are entering a new dark age of mankind, based upon lies and manipulation. To see how weak people truly are and how even when it is against their best interests, and that of their families. To have that foresight to see down the road and to feel it’s presence like the hand of death on your shoulder.
And yet I know that this is not necessarily the case, and that the best laid plans rarely go off without a hitch. Also I’ve been here enough times to know that the worst to happen is not as bad as I imagine it to be. Taking another tack, maybe my vision is limited and the full scope cannot be seen, also my feelings may not be 100% reliable and may echo past experiences from childhood, bleeding into my adult life. Rationality can be lost in times like this and as I know when I am not sleeping well, the impact of my negative thoughts is greater when I am tired.
From experience I can say that at times like this, the best thing to do is just sit it out. To let the thoughts burn through their fuel and not let fear become a driver in my behaviour. And so I will sit with my bleak outlook until it fades. At times like this action is almost always a wrong move to make, any action taken at this time will turn out badly for me, so I just sit and stew until the water is off the boil and cooling. Don’t even attempt to think positively about your situation when you find yourself here, as that will make matters worse.
Tomorrow will be a different day, and even if you don’t sleep well tonight the thoughts will have time to subside. Writing down how you feel is always beneficial and will be useful when your thoughts inevitably turn to the same subjects tomorrow. For the written word is evidence of having been here before and that there is no need to endlessly ruminate on the same topics; committed to the history of your life.
In a few days you will be in a better position to make decisions and then to take correct action.
But for now, just sit. This will pass…