Jane 26/03/21:
Ok it’s late. I didn’t think I was going to email you tonight. Been in my own world. But yet paradoxically still with OCD. My mind is super active right now for some reason? It’s 3am! I am having thoughts … I keep thinking about this thing about Kundalini as an energy where there seems to be a overwhelming consensus on it being a “female” energy. I am not so sure about that?
I know that I was very “male” in my ego persona, but I actually think most of humanity is. Even the female embodiment of humans. You only have to look at today’s females. Btw: I think they shot themselves in the foot with the right wing feminism. But I also get why they felt the need to do that, because of the men! The pushback. The battle of the sexes in the collective. And I know the archetype in the collective is to address that. What I concluded is that all is duality/polarity it has to be in the matrix it’s a dualistic realm. But things change outside the parameters of dualism. In the perfect partnership both sides male and female recognise, accept, honour and understand their differences.
This is the only partnership energy that brings equal mutual respect. Actually in the perfect partnership you realise there ARE NO DIFFERENCES. I know it would have taken a major fucking energy sweep to wake me up as a stale old fart baby boomer male persona ego in a female embodiment. I mean fuck Laz, I clearly see now the brainwashing and how it was a precarious situation for me … lol And I completely get that it was the female aspect of Kundalini and my ally that counteracted that male energy in my case.
I find my state as neutral now. Perfectly balanced male/female….”is” Sorry lmao again. I actually think that Kundalini is the perfect …”neutralising balancer” for both imbalances for too much male energy or too much female energy. I think it makes up the deficit whatever that may be for an individual? As it works through their chakras.
So is Kundalini in it’s natural state neither male or female in energies? Is it simply a perfect balance between the two? Until It finally reaches equilibrium? Or is that not the concept of Kundalini but the outcome product of it’s work? It balances the imbalances of an individual’s chakras. Regardless of gender narratives? Because in my experience I can certainly assure you that when Kundalini surges through me it can become male or female? It’s simply the “ignition” charge? It MADE ME the male “fighter” or the female “nurturer” depending on what energy was required.
Is Kundalini truly a female energy? Is Kundalini truly a male energy? Or is it that Kundalini is a neutral energy? Or Is it the neutrality that is ultimately the kundalini goal? Or is that neutrality, now simply the force/source I am experiencing?
I hope this email gives you a feeling of….Ok its 3:33. I may just laugh myself to sleep…as I leave you out of space and time with a …… MORNING …..
Laz 26/03/21:
That is brilliant Jane, and well worth waking up for 🙂 I agree totally, and you’ve brought together two competing concepts I have struggled with. It almost seems to simple to call it neutrality, but you are right an that is what it is. I think they say in science that beautiful ideas are often simple.
So I had not connected the writing about Kundalini with the female experience of it, for obvious reasons. I am a man, the texts are predominantly written by men, and while I experienced a feminisation of my psyche, that is only because I am male. It makes total sense that for a female a masculinisation occurs, with the goal of both to achieve balance and neutrality!
I also look out on the world and at women in leadership positions, and find that they simply mimic men. It’s really strange to see the great equality drive achieving nothing, as we are not getting the female style leadership, just more male leadership from someone in a skirt. I think I wrote about this somewhere previously…
I would love to see real female leadership, the likes of a mother leading her family, or a teacher leading her class. Not this faux female leadership that is actually not any different to the way men lead. Some names come to mind, Priti Patel, Theresa May, Nicola Sturgeon, to name but three. Unfortunately this also give rise to the faux woman, that of a man in a dress acting out the male leadership model, but pretending it’s female, I give you Doctor Rachel Levine!
I wonder then what true neutral leadership looks like, when it’s neither male or female. I can’t think of any examples, can you? Maybe Mohandas Ghandi?
Jane 26/03/21:
I know that you have to transcend duality to see outside of the box and this world needs a bigger picture perspective of itself! The female leaders have to become men in dresses because it’s a competition against the male force. I am surprised these women have not grown dicks because that is what they are symbolically trying to do. Could you imagine a benevolent Jesus type getting anywhere in politics? They would simply crucify them. Too much competition.
There is no perceived profit in peace, it’s all about war, it is so well propogandised through the fear tactic that it allows the cogs in the military machines to just keep turning…..out a profit. America is a prime example of a country that literally runs on a military concept. They will purposefully start a war to use up old weapons and make room for yet more! It cracks me up because it is quite obvious that in America the people are geared for war, that is because they are constantly at war. Then externally with each other and internally with themselves!
What civilised country needs military grade weapons out of fear for their neighbour’s? What civilised society is as armed to the teeth as it’s own military? The second amendment is a fucking joke! American citizens don’t even have the basic human rights that we have. It kind of blew my mind to go down into the nitty gritty of the American way of live.The American dream is dead! Unless you have money, It was an illusion anyway.
Yeah I don’t know much about Ghandi but he seems to be one of the few that won a war without firing a shot. True power versus force in action.
Laz 26/03/21:
Why do you think it is that genuine female leadership has never taken on the business/political world, I mean that nurturing is there in our lives and the saying of “behind every successful man is a great woman” is so true? Could it be that female leadership is less showy, less insecure, without the need to put itself front and centre, or is that in itself a facet of 100’s of years of the patriarchy?
Jane 26/03/21:
I have not specifically studied her but I think Jacinda Ardern, New Zealand’s prime minister is a pretty good example of a female leader. She always impresses me on the ways in which she deals with even the trickiest situations. She doesn’t need to be showy, actions speak louder than words. Interesting fact that they studied this with the pandemic and countries lead by women came out top for competence. I think it has something to do with hormones? We are just meat bodies running on chemicals and hormones. Until we can balance the shit out we are basically slaves to these influences….lol.
Laz 26/03/21:
I must admit, I had her in the other camp of chicks with dicks! Her lockdown has been so severe, possibly the most severe on the planet, very male.
Jane 26/03/21:
I was talking about the way she deals with things like terrorism. I don’t know much about her personally. I think that maybe this lockdown again is coming from two poles; male/female.
Some have the intent and motive to use it to restrict and control as in dictatorship mind. Others may have the genuine intentions and motives to “nurture” and safeguard the vulnerable. The world is watching each other. Statistics are being monitored ( not very accurately ). Where there was no lockdown at all or very little, they were dropping like flies. No one really knows what they are doing. I think the planet is overpopulated anyway.
I cannot believe how my shields are back up. The awful sound vibrations I have been dealing with for the past 6 years don’t seem to be getting through anymore. The frequencies that are getting through don’t feel like kryptonite breaking me down cell by cell. That is a huge positive for me!
Laz 26/03/21:
good 🙂
Jane 26/03/21:
One of the greatest realisations I made about the male/female once balanced myself was this…Neither are superior. They are equal energies. But the male is more powerful than the female by design.
However, a male can only get that supercharged power from a female influence and only if that female feels he is worthy of it. The foolproof plan. Males cannot demand that respect and take that power by force, like all respect it has to be earned. My friend knew that safety valve was firmly in place between us ….because he still had imbalances and an ego. That power can never be given to an ego.
Laz 27/03/21:
That messes with my head!
So our Boris then, is he supercharged by Carrie? I mean, he’s all ego so is she giving him her power or not?
Jane 27/03/21:
Sorry I didn’t mean to mess with your head. I have no doubt that Boris is being influenced by Carrie, but they are BOTH running on ego! That’s totally different “power”. I’m not talking about mundane I am talking spiritually.
Laz 27/03/21:
So like the ultimate power team would be two spiritually awakened and egoless people of the opposite sex?
Jane 27/03/21:
I just want to make sure we are using terminology that we have the same understanding of. It’s kind of difficult for me to communicate my perspective at times because I “see” Everything is dualistic in the matrix. And I mean EVERYTHING. Even the human ego.
When I use the term “ego” it is the opposite to when I use the term “spiritual ego”. When I use the term ego I refer to the lower base human ego. The one with no self control. The greedy self interested one. The animalistic part. Dark ego, I call it. It’s full of subconscious “hell”.
You cannot give such self interested people power. Their vibrations are too low to receive it anyway. The foolproof safety valve. It’s there until one is “born again” level. Then there is a higher opposite part of the human ego, the spiritual light ego. you need a spiritual light ego to function to do anything spiritually on the planet in the 3/4 D (matrix.) it’s your drive to live a more divine life.. We can still experience things like spiritual pride at this level. But it’s not from the animal ego level because everything is done in the mindset of .. not for the self but for the all…
God’s calling me. It’s kind of your higher self “ego/persona” functioning. I guess for those with self wills it’s God’s way? And even things like pride are useful…if it’s spiritual. I had to lose both dark and light in order to integrate both and transcend all dualities. To literally leave the planet completely. But that has made me all but invisible and useless on the planet. And once you leave you cannot get fully back. …
“Can you hear me major tom, your circuits dead there’s something wrong “….Like a ghost in the matrix. Lmao.
“Neo, you are talking to a ghost!”
Well I have attempted to read the Holographic Universe book. I just cannot focus, the words are tiny and I cannot follow it because my mind keeps wandering. I kept having to re read shit. So I tried her video on YouTube. She’s boring the fuck out of me. I get most of what she’s saying but again I cannot keep my focused awareness on it. Lmao. Oh well obviously not meant to be? At least right now.
Laz 27/03/21:
Oh dear, i’m sorry to read that 🙁
Jane 27/03/21:
I just woke up from a brief sleep and my friend was in my dream. Like he was in the room with me. He was asleep in another bed in my dream? There were other people there too.
As I was waking up you know how the energies from the “reality” of the dream remain and linger for a minute or two. Well I automatically started to cry…and then I experienced “bliss” going through me taking it all away. Back to neutral.
I have been having those pure bliss moments a lot the past few days. Just for a few minutes at a time. They are a wonderful sensation but I wouldn’t want them to last for too long. It’s not a state I would want to maintain.
Laz 27/03/21:
More signs 🙂
Yes I had that energy this morning, It was a clear sky and a bright moon last night I had a hard time getting off to sleep, and when I woke I had that pull through from the dream to the daytime world too.
I’ve got to the point now that the “bliss” (or Kundalini surge as I’ve come to call it) doesn’t fill me up any more, in years gone I was empty and it would act like a filling of my vessel, but now I’m full I don’t get them in the same way. Still pleasurable but the earth shattering sensation that it once was is no longer there. I’m sure there is a part of me that is just used to it as well now. Instead I receive them as a message from the source, and there are different energies that come through the vibrations as personalities. It’s pretty much my only use for them now, to communicate, and I’d love to find that it could be possible to prove it is communication in real time with someone else who also perceives them 🙂
Still must take some time to write up the experience in detail…
Jane 27/03/21:
Ok that is a new way for me to look at it. I woke at around 5 am I think it was and it was in ecstasy. Lol. I have never considered the energy as different personalities? I read that in your account and I did find it fascinating. So is the energy different for the different personalities or is the sensation of the energy the same only the mind registers it as different?
Laz 27/03/21:
It’s difficult to tell physically, clearly the sensations are similar, but spiritually it’s different depending on who it is. I often find myself asking “who are you?” and receive a surge only to then “know” who it is. I will check and double check until I’m happy that I know who is communicating with me. My ability is limited and I seem to only manage yes and no sensations, with the positive response being the bliss rising to the brain, and a negative being the absence of a sensation, and potentially a “sucking” sensation like a dropping or a falling of the surge such that it feels like there is a vacuum pulling it down.
Jane 28/03/21:
I am going to comment as I see it. You are dealing with the 4th Dimension where there is by nature “duality” within your mental framework I presume? this is your psycho-check list testing method for if something or someone is trying to connect is positive/good/benevolent or the opposite. It’s a very good technique. It’s also a great safety valve for not allowing in charlatans. I guess it’s like your own discernment technique. Star children tend to develop a natural level of skill in this.
My friend described it as a tingling sensation in response to things being said. To know as a quantum energy it was factual truth. As you probably already know, I would see the upwards surge as positive response your mind telling you that what you are thinking is true. Divine confirmation if you will. The sucking down the basic polarising/grounding of the energy of what’s absolutely not! It’s your way of knowing when to say…ok be gone you charlatans. Lol for you maybe the less confrontational way…. The path of least resistance can work! Without fighting. But only if you are on the right individual path. For yourself but simultaneously for the all. It’s actually your divinity.
I know you battled using this whole concept in your experiences. Or should I say I know that you DEFEATED IT!, Pure source language I think I would term that as a concept! I feel like because truth changes and people are particularly attached to their beliefs it can be risky to tell it from my perspective. That is my concern over crossing the line with you. But I know you don’t have an ego so have a flexible mind.
Ascended masters. If you are still meditating on them then it is because you are dealing with a dimension that contains the archetypes both positive and negative ones. This includes the ascended masters some of which you may believe in as in need to believe in until if and or when you let them go. Transcend their need. Embody them for yourself. Become WHOLE. From my perspective Laz with the major player ones worshipped by the masses, none of them actually truly “lived” a life on earth. They are mythological archetypes in the 4D collective consciousness of humanity. Just being repeated for each new, not generation, but era. But still very much needed ones for humanity to follow by example.
The “path” explained, but never lived. In myth, tales and stories. That is a whole grid of matrixes plug unable available programme. The need for humans to believe. Dr Hawkins explained how every belief can be seen as being erroneous from the dimension above them. Now that takes some convincing for your conscious intelligent rational analytical mind to get around. but I got there. Lol. He was a great teacher to me. But he only knew it, didn’t do it. He couldn’t because he was in the matrix. I would confidently say without even meeting him that he was enlightened. And I know because he helped enlighten me.
I found out when I finally got on the web, found out he was dead and he had been identified by the matrix as a cult concept. I thought I couldn’t work it out? Like had he lied or infiltrated/had power over my mind somehow, because I agreed with him on the human psyche stuff 100%. I tried to find out why that perspective of him by research? All I could find for any possible reason was that his science mind side was into kinesiology. I think it’s a kind of voodoo science to the idiots? But who the fuck knows, all group beliefs gatherings will be seen as a cult. More than 2. If they can discredit you in the world they will. But yeah good old David, intellectually immersed me for months. I was in my element studying his work, In fact for many years. I think he may even have played a role in my psycho-drama shit? You have no idea how fucking funny this shit sounds as it hits my conscious awareness, i.e. “saying it out loud” for the first time.
Laz 28/03/21:
Would you be on for a communication experiment? I wrote this plan out a while ago for Thornton Streeter, so his name is in it. And as you may imagine he was one in a long list people who told me that yes, they could communicate in this way and would take part, but then suddenly went quiet and backed away when I tried to plan it! Have a read and let me know:
Jane 28/03/21:
Sure, I’m up for anything. Lol. I will study it for a few days like let it process. Obviously people were lying then? Bragging about shit they couldn’t do. I have no idea if it could work but I’m always up for a challenge.
Laz 28/03/21:
I also do not know if it will work, but I’m not afraid too find out 🙂
Jane 29/03/21:
I need some help. I am still trying to get as wide an understanding of this telepathy business as I can. I have never studied it before. I knew nothing about it. Its totally new to me. I need to program it in maybe? I am not searching that internet for information. Lol. Do you have any decent links for me please? Videos or texts. And can you send me an example of it in a visual clips on YouTube like with simulations, you did mention it in a tv programme.
I need to “see” the concepts within the concepts. That is the only way I can put triggers into action for my mind and imagination to start to work on it. Like a condensed crash course on the subject. Lol. Hopefully it will be a simple case of….input data, run program. I often wonder if my mind is a bit like a quantum computer? Lol. Thanks.
Laz 29/03/21:
I have no idea what I’m doing on this, so don’t worry about rules and techniques. I have none, other than this feeling that it is possible. There is loads of stuff out there about telepathy, but this is not the same. This is new as far as I can tell, and has never been done before. Basically “if” we can both get into the kundalini zone at the same the idea is to try and communicate through the vibrations. It’s both simple and impossible 🙂